Beauty, Eh?

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God is about more than just Beauty

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Quiet snowy morning. Very peaceful.

Mo gave me a book on "Advanced Marathoning".

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EDIT: When I look back at this entry, I wish I had written more. I am as perplexed as you. What DID I mean?

Have Oil, Will Travel

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5.5 Km, 24:00.0, Partly cloudy -10°C, wind chill -18°C

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The minister's sermon today seems to cover a lot of what I've been writing about in this journal lately. It was from Matthew 13:?? about 10 brides-maids and how they needed to have the oil supply in their lamps topped up and the wicks trimmed. Prepare yourself for the coming of Jesus.

In PBG terms: prepare yourself, for opportunities to be a part of the Plan will not wait for you!

It's funny, I was just thinking on my run that I need to do some research. The PBGs wouldn't provide inspiration; the minister was interested but not forthcoming; the intern minister was swamped (80 e-mails over the past two weeks). Then out of the blue, a new lady talked to me about church demographics and my new boys group. She directed me to Noah's Arc and Paul's letters. I'm skeptical, but I'll take a peek.

Supposition b)

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How things Seem and how they Are often differ. Which is more important depends on the observer.

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It's been a while since I got out to run. My shins are a bit sore. I've been feeling a bit abandoned by the PBGs so I thought I'd risk the streets to plan my first Boys' Night Out session. The PBGs left me alone to plan. "It is your group, after all," they teased. What great Guys. What value would it have for me if they took care of all the details?

Details of tonight are firming up nicely. I just hope I can remember all "my" ideas.

I am going to call the sour lady at the bus stop "4 of spades" lady. I waved to her on the bus this morning. I know it is OOPBGB, but the details are still fuzzy (hint on Suggestion #6, don't push the plan...)

Lion Baptism

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No run today, Clear, -16°C!, no wind

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Today was my lion's baptism day. I left the house at 5:45 so I could be at the laundromat when it opened. The automatic lock, however, didn't seem to have the correct time.

I used the extra 1/2 hour to read about the story of Ruth & Naomi. Pity it wasn't something about baptism. Perhaps the why of that will come later

I was struck by the grace & humility of Shirley, the laundromat's proprietor; definitely a P ot PBGs. OOPBGB most of her life. I have a long way to go if I want to be as giving and selfless as her. Or as tough as nails too. They sure make them well out on the east coast!

The lion survived the rigors of the baptism, and didn't spill any stuffing. In fact, he could use a bit more stuffing. I wonder why he was discarded.

Suggestion 5

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It is better by far to do something in Love, than it is to simply do something.

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This was the PBGs answer for Mo's original "It is not what you do, it is how you do it," comment. Thank you Mo for your suggestion.

Nothing like running on an undisturbed path full of fresh snow. There were several short stretches of virgin path.

I also checked out the "river" in which Aslan will be baptized. They are open for self serve at 6 AM. There is also a change machine. I do believe the proprietor is also a Person of the PBGs.

Another thought that came today: My new friend at Bonnie Doon pool taught me how to break the ice with strangers. Too cool. Thank PBGs. On Official PBG Business (OOPBGB).

Suggestion 4 (2)

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The PBGs will help you reveal the part of the Plan inside your heart, but it is up to you to decide to act on it.

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The PBGs are sneaky and relentless! So much happened on this run that I hardly know where to start. First there was the pursuit of the runner in the green coat. I saw him 4 times on this run. I get the feeling that he figures in my part of the Plan somehow.

Then there was the commitment I made today to share my talents and start a boys group at church. The PBGs admonished me for wanting Them to lay it all out for me. They suggested that it is me that has to make the decisions. Choose the outlet. Perform the duties. Get On With it Buddy! So I did.

I got the ball rolling. It was the easiest thing I ever did. Everyone I talked to about it at church was very supportive. Even eager. You could almost hear the pegs clicking into place. As if all everyone was waiting for was my acceptance of the task.

Needless to say, I am scared. Deep down, I know I can handle it. I do feel like I have jumped in the deep end though. Everyone except me seems to be confident in my abilities.

...And then there was the symbols I found on my run. Purple feather, just like I had imagined. When I took a closer look, it turned out to be a pen with a big downy feather.

Then there was the cheeky way the PBGs pulled me off the running path with bottles as rewards just to tell me to remember Suggestion #1.  "Tim, keep a humble heart," They seemed to say.

Then to top it all off, They delivered Aslan the lion himself to me. I am sure that "he" will come in handy for many things in my boys' group.

Now I know the PBGs have a Thesaurus and ample vocabulary to communicate with me.

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I almost forgot the man in the green jacket. I've seen him before on other runs. At the start of my run, I saw a can. Rather than carry it the entire way, I left it there to pick up at the end of my run. I commented to the PBGs "I wonder what significance this will have at the end of my run." Later, when I saw the man, I wanted to ask him why he only ran on the paths, never next to the roads. I caught up to him at one point but held back, fearing his reaction. He turned off just before I overtook him. "Opportunities come and if you wait, they fade away. They may come again, but they won't be the same twice."

I saw and greeted the man in green just as I went to get that pop can. Guess what, he lives across the street!

Thoughts - Freshly Squeezed

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6.8 Km, 37:05.9, Dark 0°C, 6 km wind

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My mind is crowded with thoughts; not much room for the PBGs. They don't seem to mind. They are very patient.

Work, ferrets, relationships all jostling for a turn at the thought center of my brain.

Consequently, it was only at the end of my run that the PBGs managed to squeeze a thought in: "Even when it seems like We are far away, we are right there with you."

It echoes a scene from the ferret book: Baxter has just discovered that even though he is a ferret fairy, he also has a guardian angel who is watching over him. He sees his angel briefly and is startled when it disappears. The angel says: "don't worry, I'm not gone." I didn't despair this morning, but it is still nice to know that I won't have to.

Air Ferrets Aloft

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No run today

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Just because I take a day off, doesn't mean that the PBGs do. Mo & the kids have been reading "Air Ferrets aloft" by Richard Bach. It has been a very long time since Mr. Bach came to call in our lives.

This book is very much, about the PBG conversations I have been having

• Suggestions from a moderately high power; flying ferret fairies can only suggest!
• coincidences from on high to follow the "Path" or higher right
• gifts of seeing things as they already are
• destiny mixed with free will

Very interesting coincidence that this book would come to my attention when it did. Apparently it was brought to Mo's attention by her atheist father! Guess what the current book in the series is about? A writer ferret having trouble with his muse! (I just had to buy a copy for you Mo!)

Gotta love those PBGs

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6.8 Km, 38:30.4, Snow -2°C, 10 km wind

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I asked the PBGs what they had to say about Love today. Apparently not much. They hinted that "that was beyond their scope; have to take that to a higher power (chuckle, snort!)". Thanks, Guys. Big help.

When the guffaws subsided, they admonished, "What would you feel like if we withheld our Love?" I didn't have an answer to that, and they continued to withhold Their answer.

Where are you Love?

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Only a short swim today

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Tension was pretty high today. Mo is stressed about making her Halloween bug things. I haven't been too tolerant.

In church today, there was a baptism service. The focus was on relationship and love. I got to thinking about all the "conversations" I have had with the PBGs, not one of them has been about love, companionship, neighborliness, peace... Is that a lack in me? Is it my conscientiousness that has trouble with this concept? "Even the poet spares a thought for love"

Our minister told me briefly that there were no others interested in the Faith Inquiry so it has been cancelled. I hope there will be some other small group meeting to take its place. There is going to be a men's breakfast next week.

Suggestion 4 (1)

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The fact that you cannot perceive all of the PBGs Plan does not preclude you from being a part of it. Right or wrong, your actions make the Plan unfold.

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The PBGs have no hands of their own. They control the world through their Suggestions. But they have a much better way of changing the world: US. Since we have free will, we can choose not to listen to the carefully planned schedule of the PBGs. It is my assertion, however, that even that is built into the Plan. If the PBGs started creation and then sat back to see how things would unfold, the wouldn't need to be involved in our daily lives. Free will and an involved god implies that THE PLAN must be constantly adjusted and monitored in order to keep it on track. So every time a person makes a "Wrong" choice, the Plan must be altered to take that into account.

Or perhaps the plan is set up to work for either choice. More likely, with a caring, loving present god, the Plan is structured so that many trivial choices are used to practice for the really pivotal choices in our lives.

Then again, how should I know how the gods have structured the world... I am only a runner, not a PBG.

Fears of the Dark

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6.8 Km, 37:09.9, Dark 0°C, light wind

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The turmoil of yesterday and this morning has left me confused and unfocused. It is dark & silent on my run today. My focus keeps coming back to the fears that are holding me lately.

1. fear of risking my current job just because it is unsatisfying
2. fear of not being able to "fool" anyone else that I should be paid my current wage
3. fear of appearing a "fool" for needing a god (even a couple of minor ones) to help me decide what to do
4. fear that my current employer will decide a little more fat trimming is necessary for the health of the company (who do you think they would let go?).

I am sure I could go on. It is encouraging that some of these fears I am addressing.

PBGs be willing, I will be ready to jump when the time comes.

Spiritual Advisor?

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?? Km, ??:??.?, Cloudy 13 °C, 25 km wind

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I met with our churches Minister today for lunch. I expected it to be 16 °C so I didn't wear a coat. I told him a little about the PBGs and he told me a little about his being a minister. I saw some parallels between him relationship with his brother and my relationship with my brother S. In the course of our conversation, I discovered that one of the strongest influences I had for creating the PBGs was a lack of direction. Up to this point in my life, I always had some goal and some hope of getting there. Now I have lost faith in all of my dreams and have no hope of attaining them. So, I require an external source of direction. Sounds like a perfect home for a roll-your-own deity to me.

Why invent one (two)? With my reluctance to make a fool of myself (be wrong?) it is much easier to believe in something I know isn't true than to risk saying I believe in something that cannot be proven and may in fact be total garbage.

My minister says there isn't much interest in the "Faith Inquiry"; just me so far. He says that perhaps we could form a small group of people; perhaps a book study or something.

I told him that what I was really looking for was some community. I also told him that I really didn't go for the "prayer" time or formal Christian tradition stuff. He admitted that most groups have that component, but that it usually was a small component of any gathering. I guess, from my limited experience, I agree with that.

Mostly Quiet.

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6.8 Km, 34:00.2, Overcast 1°C, 5 km wind

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Partly Cloudy, Relatively Calm, Mostly Quiet. My spirit collects in small dark oily pools. Calm, quiet, but not particularly clear. The dog barking in the distance; every bus in the city seems to be in Millwoods. My repeating sounds; Breath, plodding feet. My non-stop thoughts; work, home tasks, church concerns, kid concerns...

I am striving for a quiet, calm, clear spirit, but even at 6:30 the world cannot be entirely shut out.

Then the thought of the day comes (as it often does, near the end). Since the PBGs insist on free will (horrors!) and expect decisions (!) they must also proscribe actions. Independent, creative, "because I think it is important", actions. When deciding on actions I must keep Suggestions I, II & III in mind.

To have it any other way would not do. PBGs do not lead children through the forest with trails of M & Ms to ginger bread houses. Nor do they guide reluctant donkeys with carrots on sticks. They do not intend to walk with your bloated ego floating above them on a string like a bizarre balloon.

We are all the hands of the PBGs. They work with us, through us and for us. My mind and creativity are just as much at their disposal as my hands and my heart.

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One more thought to record: "I am On Official PBG Business". A motto for any People of the PBGs that I may meet or inspire.

Suggestion 3

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It may seem like you're being tested, but rest assured, the PBGs are not keeping score.

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Not a lot of chatter around this one; it just popped fully formed into my consciousness. Prior to this Suggestion, I was thinking about the Purity laws and ritual purification. I thought today's topic (eh?) was going to be "Who is your neighbor". Who knows, it still could be. Just because my run is over doesn't mean I am through with the PBGs

Quiet Running

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6.8 Km, 37:23.3, Sunny -4 °C, wind chill -9 °C. Ice & snow, clear

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Quiet. Too Quiet. The PBGs seem to be taking a holiday. More likely they are off somewhere else planning and scheming something I am not directly a part of.

Me? I was not a particularly attentive student anyway. Maybe I was not hearing the Sermon today because I was busy listening to the griping of my sore shoulder, the burning in my calves & thighs, aching knee and off balance posture.

So for most of my run I was content with the actuality of the PBGs' silence or my own reluctance to really listen.

The revelation came, (as so often happens, when you start to get tired or bored or both) near the end of my run.

"Hey there! There is no need to push," they said. Pushing in life, as in running, just wears a body down and decreases your overall endurance. Save your breath!

Supposition a)

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A small coincidence can have a large meaning and a large coincidence can have no meaning; it all depends on your frame of mind.

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For me, the PBGs use "coincidences" for much of the conversations we have together. What I am thinking often meshes with what they have arranged to place in my path and, one would suppose, what I am thinking about. This is only a Supposition (I am inclined to think this is their word, from their thesaurus) because it only supports the other more important Suggestions.

I tried to introduce a Covenant with the PBGs today. Right off the bat, Covenant seemed too strong and definite a term for the PBGs. I asked them to inspire me with a better name, but even though they seemed to have a thesaurus, they weren't talking. The covenant I was trying to get them to agree to was that I would run along, thinking my thoughts, and anything they thought was important, they would mark with the appearance of a can or something.

The trickster of the pair, taunted me with a wayward rabbit. "I know you haven't chosen this path; follow me!" said the rabbit (Jack, the PBGs' pet rabbit)

The other of the pair, complied vaguely by providing two cans for the thought of documenting the "10 Suggestions".

In the end I will just have to be satisfied that they will do what they want, when they want. After all, it is their show, and I am but a bit player. I can only act (or choose not to act) out the role I have chosen in the manner that is most comfortable to me at this moment.

PBGs, I am listening, and questing. I hope you (and I) find myself worthy of the challenges you have planned.

Suggestion 2

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It's not about what you get (from the world), it's about what you add.

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I received this Suggestion on the first snowman day of 2002. I was in a good mood because I knew my kids and I would probably get out and do some snow sculpting when I got home. I had already seen some kids up (7:00 in the morning!) planning their snow creations. Half way through my run, I met two kids (3 & 5 years old?) who didn't even know how to make a snow man. Their dad looked on while I taught them how. They were really excited when I told them it was up to them to decorate their snowman.

Only the PBGs could arrange that my unique talent would be useful to give joy to those kids and to bring that family together that snowy morning.

Message Archive

From Mo:

Posted 12.14.2003 3:37 PM Damsels in distress

Sometimes the single act of a rescue which doesn't seem to have any redeaming qualities to it at the time may be that wink from a stranger that becomes a sign that there is a bigger picture than what we see. Who knew that my friendly smile in church to someone I don't feel comfortable with all the time would lead in a small way to that person getting baptised? In some ways I think it would be better not to know how a small action can ripple into something larger. That you could get a woman to smile at all in the midst of an angry, tragic change may be the angel in you reaching out to comfort her when she needed it most.

Red Faced Squirrel replies

Oh, I agree completely. I thought it was nice of the PBGs to arrange that she be there for my baptism too. She seemed even grumpier yesterday. But, my helping her out may have touched her on a deeper level and who knows how long that 'infection' will 'fester' in her heart. It is my job to be me and do what I do and let go and let God after that point. I have to focus on what is my job and let others take care of there own lives. I have decided that I am a servant of God and that I must do what is in my God madate (from either his Calls (can I have an unlisted number please) or from my own feelings of 'right-ness') for every decision that is presented to me by life. If the call is to go to Red Deer to help out a friend, I go to Red Deer (if Mo lets me to of course). In short, you gotta be true to who you are. Period. Oh, and listen for that small God voice. That is important too.

Posted 9.29.2003 5:13 PM Messy stories

I really like where you're going here, a proactive approach that has to ride out the storms and find happiness where it can. I hope to read more soon!

Posted 9.17.2003 11:47 AM Humor

Like fire, humor can warm the soul or burn the fingers and takes lots of practise. I follow that ancient clown, Jesus, who talked of being non-judgemental and kind but having goofy stories to make a point (anyone tried sewing with a camel stuck in their needle recently???).

Posted 9.17.2003 11:45 AM Playing around, are you???

What on earth is Noahidism? or Jainism? Is that like silly things that Jane of Jungle says? I'm glad that you're not into that youngest of femme fatale's, Miss Atheism. She really is quite young, only about 3 or 400 (if that). It's okay to play the field for a bit and we can learn so much from them all (ask me about Gnosticism some time).

Posted 9.4.2003 11:12 AM Spiritual doggy biscuits

But, I want some doggy biscuits! I'll be a good puppy too, and never miss the newspaper. I guess the PBGs' love is to treat me with more respect than that. I'm not a dog, I'm a partner and bribing implicates imbalance.

From Twisted Squirrel (TS):

Posted 12.16.2003 11:43 AM Inspiration

I think you may have missed your calling, or maybe you are on the path. Perhaps one day you will discover that people will look to you to minister in an official capacity. I admire the fact that you always look for the good in people and situations. A quote that I liked and recorded goes something like this "Perhaps it is not the goal but the journey we should appreciate." Take care my good friend.

Encouragements:

Posted 10.07.2003 10:44 AM To: wazzoo Advice

You are each other's strength. Give your daughter what strength you can spare and both of you will be stronger for it. The night is darkest before the dawn. If what you need is an ear, I will listen. Kia Kaha

Links

croxis - "Dream like you can touch the stars. Love like you have never been hurt, and Dance like no one is watching". Warning, adult content

Suggestion 1

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It's not about fee for service.

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This Suggestion, because it was the first, took a long time to formulate in my consciousness. It is, I think, (so far) the most important tenant of the PBGs. I began to understand this Suggestion when they [the PBGs] provided cans on days I didn't clean up my 'alley' or chose a different path than the one they suggested. For me, this Suggestion means that following the PBGs does not lead to monitory gain or spiritual doggie biscuits. Return on investment is not part of the contract. The flip side of this Suggestion is that if you choose the way of the PBGs, you can be guaranteed that your participation is part of the grand scheme and will be beneficial to someone, somewhere, sometime in the big PBGs' time-frame. No promises, just a guarantee!

Introduction to the PBGs

If you have found this on-line journal by an act of fate (or more likely because of a google search) you may be wondering what "PBGs" stands for.

That is a long and interesting story. Some of the answers to that question are contained in my journal entries themselves. Some of the answers are left up to you to find on your own spiritual journey.

For the impatient here is the quick answer: PBGs is a short code-word for Pop Bottle Gods.

And now for the longer answer. Here is what I have determined about the PBGs thus far on my journey.

I am a Runner (no, not a Jogger, a Runner) and I have spent many lonely hours pounding the pavement training for marathons. If I were to go into the reasons I run, this would be an even longer story, so I'll leave that for another day.

Anyway, over the summer I started a conversation (sort of a thought experiment at first) where I thought about God.

Now, don't get me wrong... I am not a 'religious nut' by any means. I go to church with my family, but for most of my life I have been a questioning Agnostic. I am not, myself, a member of our church. Until recently, I didn't think I had any kind of faith.

God was too big a concept for me to handle in my own musing.

So I imagined my own pair of gods whom I could interact with (notice the lower case 'g' on that folks). You may say "this guy is nuts! Not one but two gods!". Well that is what came to me. I have since learned not to argue with where my mind wanders.

Bear with me while I digress a bit more. I also pick things up on my runs. During my runs, I pick up grocery bags (usually stuck on bushes) and fill them with pop cans and bottles I find lying around. This practice started out as a way to justify buying expensive running shoes ($100+) on a very small running budget. Because of this habit of mine, I am always looking around and squinting at bits of garbage trying to determine if I am seeing a slurpie cup top or the bum of a beer can.

The PBGs came into the picture when I started wondering to myself about why some days there were lots of cans and bottles and other days there were virtually none. I invented small gods to be in control of a small aspect of my confusing world. The Pop Bottle Gods were born.

It wasn't until much later that I discovered that these small fragments of the 'bigger' God (you know, the one everybody else believes in) were simply a metaphor that made it easier to deal with my God phobia.

After my run, I would often relate what I had been thinking about to my well-read church-going wife. It stared out as a fun game and she would sometimes jokingly ask "How were the PBGs today?" We came up with the short hand name to hide our embarrassment for inventing a god (2 actually) and so that we could talk about it without people asking a lot of questions that required long answers.

One day, she said "You know, that sounds a lot like what I reading recently" in a book about spirituality.

After this I started paying more attention to the thoughts that occurred during my morning runs. In fact, I started a journal to record what the PBGs and I 'talked' about.

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This is that journal. It is part running log and part spiritual journey. Share it with me. See where I am at. Laugh at me if you want. Take away with you only the parts that make sense and discard what doesn't fit for you.

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Just a note about the Suggestions and Suppositions

• Suggestions are the commandments of the PBGs. They are meant to be followed. Like most commandments, they are deliberately vague and can be interpreted anyway that makes sense to you. I call them Suggestions because, hey, these are minor gods, after all. Who are they to tell you how to run your life.
• Suppositions are not quite strong enough to be Suggestions, but have a supporting role. I haven't attempted to attach Suppositions to a specific Suggestion.

Accumulated Index

This here is a list of ALL the pages in my blog by title. It is a handy tool for me when I am doing self referring links and it removes a long list of links from my sidebar. I will only be updating it periodically, so if you want current links look to the current page or the archive pages

October 2006

July 2006

June 2006

March 2006

February 2006

January 2006

September 2005

August 2005

July 2005

June 2005

May 2005

February 2005

January 2005

December 2004

October 2004

September 2004

August 2004

July 2004

June 2004

May 2004
DATE: 5/31/2004 04:25:00 PM Marathon Training Commences
DATE: 5/28/2004 10:36:00 AM Word Fails Me
DATE: 5/18/2004 03:22:00 PM Intolerant Reply
DATE: 5/17/2004 01:08:00 PM Love Each Other
DATE: 5/14/2004 10:38:00 PM Past, Present, Future
DATE: 5/14/2004 01:22:00 PM Seattle Marathon Picture
DATE: 5/13/2004 10:39:00 AM Inspiration by TNT18
DATE: 5/07/2004 10:19:00 AM Senseless Death
DATE: 5/05/2004 01:27:00 PM Note To Self
DATE: 5/05/2004 12:31:00 PM Cannibal Women in the Avocado Jungle of Death

April 2004
DATE: 4/27/2004 09:53:00 PM Conservative
DATE: 4/26/2004 10:41:00 PM  Give us this Day...
DATE: 4/21/2004 12:34:00 PM Pressure to Change
DATE: 4/16/2004 10:00:00 AM  Unclean Spirit
DATE: 4/09/2004 08:48:00 PM  Between a Bunny and a Hard Place
DATE: 4/08/2004 09:38:00 AM Internet Hand of God
DATE: 4/08/2004 02:06:00 PM Not your Every-Day Rat food!
DATE: 4/06/2004 11:21:00 PM Yes, but am I a Christian?
DATE: 4/2/2004 09:52:01 AM Spam Report: Is It A Stroke?

March 2004
DATE: 3/30/2004 11:34:00 AM Spam Report: $25 Million for nothing
DATE: 3/25/2004 12:38:06 PM Bible: Chapter and Verse
DATE: 3/23/2004 09:22:37 AM Spam Report: Not Tickle-ish
DATE: 3/8/2004 09:54:42 AM Spam Report: Administration Masquerade
DATE: 3/1/2004 02:03:12 PM Running Record
DATE: 3/1/2004 01:00:27 PM Mel Gibson´s "The Passion of The Christ"

February 2004
DATE: 2/27/2004 09:27:14 PM Given Up For Lent
DATE: 2/24/2004 12:57:48 PM Phone Phobia Action
DATE: 2/18/2004 04:00:02 PM One Step Back
DATE: 2/5/2004 10:09:34 PM Memory Palace
DATE: 2/4/2004 09:24:37 AM Consider a Change In Direction

January 2004
DATE: 1/29/2004 06:59:03 PM The Innocent and The Shy
DATE: 1/28/2004 11:09:46 AM It´s Blog-citing!
DATE: 1/25/2004 02:59:04 PM Phone Phobia
DATE: 1/23/2004 09:13:25 AM New Phase
DATE: 1/14/2004 12:01:08 AM Revisit the Past
DATE: 1/13/2004 10:17:57 PM Will Blogging save the World?
DATE: 1/12/2004 12:39:01 PM Native Spirituality II

December 2003
DATE: 12/16/2003 06:49:47 PM Pop bottle of Intent
DATE: 12/14/2003 06:59:54 PM Baptism day
DATE: 12/13/2003 07:27:02 PM Rescue Mission - there will be a test
DATE: 12/11/2003 06:41:07 PM Voice of God?
DATE: 12/5/2003 07:58:10 PM Seattle Marathon Trip

November 2003
DATE: 11/30/2003 08:17:48 PM Seattle Marathon Race Report
DATE: 11/10/2003 12:01:02 AM See a drunkard in the rain
DATE: 11/8/2003 08:24:24 PM Fishy Philosophy
DATE: 11/1/2003 12:01:48 PM Provided That Which I Needed
DATE: 11/1/2003 12:01:42 AM Mustard Seed Advise

October 2003
DATE: 10/24/2003 05:50:59 PM Ants go working...
DATE: 10/20/2003 11:42:25 PM Supposition d)
DATE: 10/7/2003 06:15:29 PM PBG Club: not mere Doofuses
DATE: 10/7/2003 12:01:40 AM Word of the Day: Arborescent
DATE: 10/5/2003 05:43:30 PM Native Girl
DATE: 10/3/2003 12:01:57 AM Spam Report: Sara Freder is a Fake
DATE: 10/2/2003 12:01:09 AM Suggestion 7

September 2003
DATE: 9/30/2003 08:51:00 PM Bridge to a new Stanza
DATE: 9/29/2003 12:01:33 AM Boy´s Group.
DATE: 9/27/2003 12:01:37 AM A Matter of Focus
DATE: 9/20/2003 09:15:13 PM ... And the Thought That Didn´t
DATE: 9/19/2003 12:01:22 AM Stay Strong
DATE: 9/18/2003 09:51:51 AM The Thought That Got Away
DATE: 9/17/2003 12:01:20 AM Bus Friend
DATE: 9/16/2003 05:09:39 PM Promiscuous Faith
DATE: 9/14/2003 10:03:06 AM Recommissioning Sunday
DATE: 9/13/2003 12:01:20 AM Whose God is it Anyway?
DATE: 9/11/2003 12:01:43 AM Suggestion 6
DATE: 9/11/2003 12:01:12 AM A Dream for Hunter
DATE: 9/10/2003 10:18:10 AM Hills Alive
DATE: 9/9/2003 10:21:03 AM Time Heals All?
DATE: 9/8/2003 10:23:05 AM Easy Community?
DATE: 9/6/2003 12:01:35 AM On The Path (I think)
DATE: 9/4/2003 12:01:33 AM Be Consistent
DATE: 9/3/2003 10:12:04 AM Back To School
DATE: 9/2/2003 12:01:32 AM OOPBGB, PPBGs
DATE: 9/1/2003 12:01:59 AM PBGs Summary

August 2003
DATE: 8/27/2003 11:37:52 PM Supposition c)

May 2003
DATE: 5/4/2003 12:01:35 AM My New Run Group
DATE: 5/2/2003 12:01:25 AM The Ground of Being

February 2003
DATE: 2/1/2003 12:01:18 AM Training again

January 2003
DATE: 1/5/2003 12:01:59 AM More training
DATE: 1/4/2003 12:47:07 PM Just training

December 2002
DATE: 12/29/2002 12:49:29 PM Beauty, Eh?

November 2002
DATE: 11/10/2002 12:01:34 AM Have Oil, Will Travel
DATE: 11/5/2002 12:01:14 AM Supposition b)

October 2002
DATE: 10/29/2002 06:49:11 PM Lion Baptism
DATE: 10/29/2002 12:01:27 AM Suggestion 5
DATE: 10/28/2002 12:01:20 AM Suggestion 4 (2)
DATE: 10/25/2002 12:01:46 AM Thoughts - Freshly Squeezed
DATE: 10/24/2002 12:01:53 AM Air Ferrets Aloft
DATE: 10/21/2002 12:01:16 AM Gotta love those PBGs
DATE: 10/20/2002 01:41:55 PM Where are you Love?
DATE: 10/19/2002 12:01:09 AM Suggestion 4 (1)
DATE: 10/18/2002 01:50:41 PM Fears of the Dark
DATE: 10/17/2002 01:57:19 PM Spiritual Advisor?
DATE: 10/15/2002 12:01:56 AM Mostly Quiet.
DATE: 10/14/2002 12:01:03 AM Suggestion 3
DATE: 10/12/2002 12:01:09 AM Quiet Running
DATE: 10/11/2002 12:01:41 AM Supposition a)

September 2002
DATE: 9/21/2002 12:01:09 AM Suggestion 2
DATE: 9/18/2002 08:30:42 PM Message Archive
DATE: 9/16/2002 12:01:23 AM Suggestion 1
DATE: 9/15/2002 12:00:36 AM Introduction to the PBGs

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